Social Distancing Soundtrack 2020 (Alternative / Hardcore)
What can I say. Life has been pretty, pretty, pretty wild.
for the first time have experienced something I never thought to be possible. I have a version of depression that “Will” be in some medical journals.
“Cøncert Depressiøn”. i know it sounds stupid, but I have been going to concerts since I was 12 years old, and that is my drug. the energy, the love, and about all “the unity”, which seems to be unheard of these days. its in my blood. this detøx fucking sucks.
I was recently put on an SNRI for minor depression, anxiety, and neuropathy pain. Mainly for the shooting pain that happens down my legs because of my Kidney Transplant. the other two were the perks that i didn’t know that i needed.
so to this earthquake in utah …
it sounded like a freight train coming down, like hella loud. i thought it was the tracks. i have to take ambien to sleep so i woke up like will smith in independence day, and just went back to sleep, but then i soon woke up for work. i was like oh, holy shit, there “was” an earthquake! i then was speeding back from guitar center off i-215, and there are so many damn high rise interchanges, i was like im going to out run this “seconD” tremor like in the movies, and its going to be crumbling, as long as i get down to i-15 600S exit i can be on “flat fault line land”. still not the best situation, but the second tremor, turned out to be a rumor. i drove around, and saw some of the damage to the buildings, pretty surreal.
then quarantine, lockdown, protests, riots, anarchy, the most sociological hate i have ever seen, and deserving movement all happening at the same time. so i had my first panic attack mixed with depression at the same time. nothing i have ever felt, even with all the health trials i have endured.
sadly, also for the first time in my life …I have become more apathetic towards almost everything, because everything I love and know how to do, has been taken away and replaced with a “Hope" of Nothing”. What is going to happen with my world of restaurants, hospitality, brand/promo work, events, concerts. entertainment?
The Uncertainty of it all. everyone is either escaping to Familiarity of bad habits. picking up new ones, all while feeling trapped … with that said my outlet of music even though not in person is still a nice lil ray of light in this darkness.
*PS I Will Try & Update This List As The Year Continues. #AugTwentyFifthTwentyTwenty.
These albums “made it” so every song adds to making this rank. I tried to only choose 3
: alternative /// hardcore :
Neck deep:
all distortions are intentional
POP PUNK / ALTERNATIVE
|:|:|: Sick Joke :|:|:|
“Sit Back And Listen
Close Your Eyes If You Feel It
’cause I’m Questioning Everything
It’s Affecting All My Decisions
I Saw You In The Mirror
And Switched Up My Rhythm
Am I Chasing A Dream Or Am I Caught In The Middle Of It?
Sometimes I Wonder
If Life Is Some Sick Joke
Will I Wake Up And It’s Over?
No, I’m Still Here And I’m Not Dead
(Still Here And I’m Not Dead)”
This is my apathetic søng of the summer. plain & simple. i think a lot of people in the hospitality industry had to “switch up their rhythm.” i know i had to think more than twice about my profession, and brand /// promotion side hustles.
i have some ideas that i want to turn into goals, but i am weighing the market & seeing what will happen. everything is an abyss of who knows.
|:|:|: Fall :|:|:|
“Your Eyes, Sunrise In The Dark
Gets Me Wild And Sets Me Off
Catch Me, I’m Falling
Catch Me, I’m Falling Pretty Hard
I’ve Never Seen So Many Faces
Leaving Trails And Making Waves
Damn, It Feels So Good To
Fall Into The Night, The Night
Fall Into The Light, The Light
You Might Find The Real You
I Can’t Fight The Need To
Fall Into The Night, The Light”
The thing about neck deep and pop/punk is the story telling and the catchy “concert energy” that you can imagine, the whole song takes me back to highschool as an adult because i didn’t really get too fucked up on anything as much as i have as an adult. i have had one of those night though were you got obliterated with an “s.o.” and just connect on a way that you would not have if you weren’t, but then when you sober up and you still like to do ordinary shit with each other thats whats awesøme about this song.
*pS - The slow down break shows how they are planning ahead, thinking about preforming live, and how fucking fun that is going to be. they do that break a few times then explodes. god damn i miss concerts.
|:|:|: I Revolve (Around You) :|:|:|
“I Can See What You Mean
Yeah, She’s Talking, I’m Listening
It’s Happening, Just Go With Me, I Need A Distraction
We Drift Like Lonely Planets And Feel Like, Like Cold Moons
Like Satellites Drawn To Your Gravity
I Revolve Around You
(I Revolve Around You)
Caught In Your Sunbeam, I Only Spin For You
Far Away Out From Me But I Still Feel You
I Think You Think Just A Little Too Much
Space Out A Little Too Much
Less Talk, A Little More Touch
It’s Alright Now, We’re All Good”
just a fun 2000’s pop/punk song. i feel like the world being so uncertain that their is still love and but we are all just floating around in space not knowing wtf to do, but his life is revolving around her and he just wants some action, no talking just “a lil more touch”, lets forget about everything and just be here for each other.
PVRIS :
use me (deluxe)
SYNTH-POP / ALTERNATIVE
|:|:|: Good to be alive :|:|:|
“Learning How To Swim, But The Land’s All Dry
Feeling Like A Shark; If I Stop, I’ll Die (Whoa-oh)
Veins Are Lit And My Blood’s On Fire
Underneath The Buzz Of The Telephone Wire (Whoa-oh)
All My Friends Are Doing Fine
While I’m Looking For A Sign
Is This Body Even Mine?
Feels Good To Be Alive, But I Hate My Life
So Tied Up And Tired Of This Self-inflicted Fight
In Spite Of, I Light Up To Leave My Demøns Inside
I Tell Myself I’m Fine While I’m Looking For A Sign
Is This Body Even Mine?
Feels Good To Be Alive, But I Hate My Life”
so i don’t know if you are getting the revolving theme of most of these artists with these albums. a lot of these songs are about uncertainty and how life is in a state of chaøs, things have been taken away that we “all” took for granted. we are all telling ourselves we are “fine” but we are all having our own out of body experiences and its fucking wild.
|:|:|: Gimme A Minute :|:|:|
“A Year Of Lows Spent So High
Feeling Like I Could Die
Inner Peace Is Hard To Buy
They’re Asking Why
I Think I’m Losing My Mind!!!
Just Gimme A Minute, Gimme A Minute
Thought I Got Through It, Maybe I Didn’t, Uh
Thought It Was Over, Maybe It Isn’t
Just Gimme A Minute, Gimme A Minute
Just Gimme A Minute, Gimme A Minute
Thought I Got Through It, Maybe I Didn’t, Uh
Thought It Was Over, Maybe It Isn’t
Just Gimme A Minute, Gimme A Minute
(Just Gimme A Minute, Gimme A Minute)”
this is DEFINITELY on my spliff, top down, canyon middle of the night playlists. it has that eerie feeling, wondering whats going to happen, and then that drop comes in, and its even more intense with the latter half of the song.
PS* It was a toss up between this and dead weight. they both have that awesøme canyon night drive feel
|:|:|: HALLUCINATIØNS :|:|:|
“Hallucinations,” lyrically… I mean, the very face value aspect is hallucinations, and type of hallucinations you can experience, and personifying that—or turning that into a context relating to a relationship or whatever. But that song encapsulates a perspective I have about the supernatural versus reality versus the physical world, I guess. There’s a lot of different perspectives on how those things exist together or whether they do exist together.
- Lynn Gunn (Lead Singer) via #AlternativePress
:::
“Hallucinations, You Occupy
My Imagination’s Running Wild
New Sensations, Sweet Temptations
I Can’t Tell What’s Real And What’s
Hallucinations, They Satisfy
Our Imagination’s Running Wild
New Sensations, Sweet Temptations
I Can’t Tell What’s Real And What’s
Hallucinations, -nations, -nations”
i remember that i had watched the music video before listening to the audio. the music video is mos def a hallucination, it gets a lil wild, but i loved it. i knew that this album was going to be something that i would løve.
“I Think I Could Love You ‘til The Day That You Die
If You Let Me Love You When The Timing Is Right
And If They Said I Had To, I Swear I’d Wait My Whole Life
I Think I Could Love You ‘til The Day That You Die
Oh, I Think I Could Love You
Think I Could Love You
Think I Could Love You
Oh, I Think I Could Love You
Think I Could Love You
Think I Could Love You
They Say Don’t Open Old Wounds
But This Is Still Brand New
And I’ve Got Nothing Left To Lose Besides You
I’ve Already Lost You Once, What More Could You Do?”
|:|: Øld wØunds :|:|
I love how pvris opens up this song … the eerie fade in, then the lyrics, “they say don’t open old wounds.” then when when lynn says shes going to, and then “i think i could love you til the day that you die”, with that small subtle lead-in … oof, it gave me goosebumps. this whole song is just so sadly awesøme, showing us our true human nature.
|:|:|: wish yøu well :|:|:|
“At The Risk Of Throwing
Off Your Center
Psychic Told Me
Something In September
We’d Be Burning Out,
But Always Tethered
But I Never Let You Know
Kinda Curious, Do You Remember?
All The Other Lives We Had Together
’Cause Every Now And Then
I See You In Amber
Fill Me With A False Hope
Can We Hold It On
Even Though You’re Gone?
I Wish You Well
I Wish You More Than You Deserve
I Wish You Well
I Hope The Next One Doesn’t Hurt”
lead singer lynn gunn has mentioned in numerous articles about her EXPERIENCES & draw to the supernatural, PARALLEL universes, paranormal, reincarnation ect.
i will have a dreams so real, that it makes me question “this reality”. I have been having them since i was 16. maybe my trauma unlocked something … anyways
i have a high rate of deja vu for someone that can “break through” just dreaming. as i take the ambien, gabapentin & melatonin just to help with my insØmnia.
this past year, has been pretty, pretty weird, because in this dream, we had never met, and i saw her face which if you know anything about dreams that’s pretty uncommon & rare.
ended up becoming pretty good friends with her, as we worked together, and then i had another few dreams that threw me through a wierd, alternate timeline-loop , where i felt i had a different life with her. it made me start questioning this life more. this song perfectly summed up what i was feeling.
|:|:|: thank you (feat. raye) :|:|:|
“Guess The Love Was All Mine
And It’s Still Mine
[Chorus: Lynn Gunn]
Thank You For Fucking It Up
Thank You For Cutting It Off
You’re Nothing But A Bullet That I Dodged
Thank You For Fucking Me Up
But It Was Worth All It Cost
’cause I Found Myself In All The Blood I Lost, Ooh-ooh-ooh
[Verse 2: Raye]
Turn All The Lights Out, I’ma Sit Here In The Darkness
Uh-uh, Uh-uh, I Kiss My Shoulder, Sing Myself To Sleep
It’s A Mind Like Yours Would Make Anyone Sick Regardless, Yeah
Well, You Call My Phone, But I’m Floating Out Of Reach
Oh-ooh-ooh-ooh-oh
[Pre-Chorus: Raye]
Ooh-ooh-ooh, You Never Loved Me
Loved Me Losing My Mind
I’m Losing My Mind, Ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh, You Never Loved Me
And My Heart Still Beats Without Your Touch
And So I Can’t Thank You Enough”
i had no idea that pvris was going to release a deluxe album and goddamn this first song of the extension was oof. aka soo . . . good for all you a-d-u-l-t-s out there :)
when that chorus dropped. i was insanely hooked on the hook. it was perfect timing for everything that was going on in my life. i love that the music gods have always had my back in my never ending emo relationships and their lyrics for that perfect moment in my timeline.
And my heart still beats without your touch
And so I can't thank you enough
|:|:|: things are better (alt. versiøn) :|:|:|
“[Verse 1]
Not Numb But Not Feeling Too Much Now
Unfazed On The Days I Should Break Down
’cause I’ve Seen Everything
Every Coast In Every Weather
Old Eyes Getting Wise From The Growth
I’m Too Tired To Be Tied To My Woes Now
You Loved Me Suffering
Hate To Tell You Things Are Better
[Pre-Chorus]
Met In The Summer, Started Going Under, Oh-oh
You Said It Was “Then” Or “Never”
Old Wounds Recovered, One After Another, Oh-oh
Hate To Tell You Things Are Better
[Chorus]
You Loved Me Suffering
But I Could Take The Pain
Sorry, I Broke The Chain
Hate To Tell You Things Are Better
You Loved Me Suffering
But I’ve Seen Everything
Sorry, I Broke The Chain
Hate To Tell You Things Are Better
Oh-oh-oh-oh, Oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Hate To Tell You Things Are Better
[Verse 2]
I’m Done Always Giving Too Much Now
’cause You Take Everything, Turn It Around
Twistin’ Up All I Said
Every Word And Every Letter”
wow. just wow. i am so glad pvris released this version. it has a totally different tone and experience than the original version that is slower and impactful in a totally different way.
i would have to say that i love this version the most. it is upbeat and like a bad ass fucking summer song, that makes me want to make a music video or something. it’s slightly buzzing different in my creative head space. the lyrics amazing. the alt version, uniquely gorgeous in its own right.
glass animals: dreamland (+bønus)
PSYCHEDELIC-POP / ALTERNATIVE
|:|:|: tØkyØ drifting :|:|:|
“[Denzel Curry]
Everything Gotta Be Eighty And You Keep The Twenty Percentage
You Know That I Get It, I’m On It, I’m In It
If You Try To Take It, The Clip Get Extended
I’m Back On My Bullshit, Like Jordan On Pippen
If This Is My Life Then I’m Tokyo Drifting (Uh)
[Chorus: Dave Bayley & Denzel Curry]
Ooh, Now You’re Lettin’ Go
Heart Beatin’ Faster, Feet Pushin’ On The Floor (Yeah, Oh)
Ain’t Nothin’ Better
Ooh, Now You’re Lettin’ Go
Heart Beatin’ Faster, Feet Pushin’ On The Floor
Ain’t Nothin’ Better
Wavey Davey’s On Fire (Yuh, Yuh, Yuh, Okay)
You Still Got It, You Still Got It Alright, Yeah (Huh, Huh, Huh)”
This track sucks you in right as you hear it. Its got like a “new modern dirty twist”, almost sorta signature with Glass Animals. This one though, is a little more dirty.
Then it fades into like okay, is this a break, a bridge … then those trumpets come in with that deep kick, ooh baby. Then Denzel Takes Off. It definitely makes me want another fast car. If I get the opportunity to break 257kmh / 165mph … it will be to this song.
*** Disclaimer: I DO NOT, Condone Going This Fast ***
|:|:|: waterfalls coming out of your mØuth:|:|:|
“Fake Youth, Scooby-doo
Push Pops On The Corner Of The Roof
Froot Loops, Superfood
Chat Shit But Where’s The Real You?
Never Seen The Price Is Right
I’m A Liar, I’ve Been On That Shit Since ‘99
You Make Me Like A Clown
Clap, Clap, You’re A Clever-clever Cookie Now
Waterfalls Coming Out Your Mouth
What The Hell Are We Doing Now?
Waterfalls Tearing You Apart
What The Hell Are We Doing Now?”
So this song will have lyrics that you will be like “umm … okay, what is hell is he talking about” “all of these lyrics are references to Millennials things"
Yes and Yes, once you see it written out, Dave Bayley (Singer/Mostly All Things) is talking about how the first few months or even dates people are trying to be something they aren’t, when they are better off just being themselves.
I 100% Agree. I have seen it before, I am usually just myself, I do get shy though, not super apparent because, I am pretty social for the most part. Dating summed up “What The Hell Are We Doing Now?”
|:|:|: Heat waves :|:|:|
“Road Shimmer Wigglin’ The Vision
Heat, Heat Waves, I’m Swimmin’ In A Mirror
Road Shimmer Wigglin’ The Vision
Heat, Heat Waves, I’m Swimmin’ In A—
Sometimes, All I Think About Is You
Late Nights In The Middle Of June
Heat Waves Been Fakin’ Me Out
Can’t Make You Happier Now
Sometimes, All I Think About Is You
Late Nights In The Middle Of June
Heat Waves Been Fakin’ Me Out
Can’t Make You Happier Now”
This song just gives me all the right feelz. Starting off going up and down the scale and then throwing some “Blurryface” type voice distortion, then right into one of the most killer little verses.
The Chorus personally took me to a time where you had a hardcore crush and its just so awesome. I can’t lie if I didn’t have one myself and was thinking about her.
However this song is about something a little different.
Dave Bayley /// From Youtube:
“This Video Is A Love Letter To Live Music And The Culture And Togetherness Surrounding It. It Was Filmed At The Peak Of The Lockdown In My Neighbourhood In East London By The Lovely People Who Live Around Me, Just Using Their Phones. These Are People Who Are Usually Out At Shows, In Galleries, Going To Cinemas Etc. These Venues Are Left Empty Now, And Many Of Them Will Not Survive. The Song Is About Loss And Longing, And Ultimately Realizing You Are Unable To Save Something…and This Video Is About That But For Art, Being Together, And Human Contact. Huge Love And Thank You’s To Everyone Who Got Involved And Helped Out. When Everyone Was Leaning Out Of Their Windows Filming, I Felt That Same Sense Of Togetherness And Spine-tingling Energy That Happened At Live Shows. It Made The Coldness Of Performing To An Empty Room With The Band Stuck On Screens Feel Even More Heart-Breaking”
silverstein:
a beautiful place to drøwn
POST-HARDCORE-POP / EMØ
|:|:|: bad habits (feat. Intervals) :|:|:|
“I Keep Chasing Bad Feelings
I Keep Breaking Down And Never Deal With It
Drown, Cuz I Don’t Wanna Swim
I’m Good With Bad Habits
I Know This Is How I Get
I Take A Small Thing And Get Obsessed
But I Don’t Care What Anyone Says
It’s Just Me And My Demons Left
I Believe In All My Doubts
I Could Be Good, But I Need To Come Down
But I’m Back At My Bullshit Now
I’m Running Back To A Burning House
Why Pay For My Mistakes
I Get Them For Free”
Pfft Pppffttt. Wait. Silverstein Blew My Mind Again?! Yes, Yes they did. Not only did they do hella throw backs in their lyrics. It’s just a classic. amazing, upbeat song that shows you this is Silverstein, get ready bitches. This is for all you OG MFs Out There! I mean that’s what I’d say if I was Shane Todd.
“I'm Running Back To A Burning House”
A Shipwreck in The Sand Album
“Left No Short Song Unsung”
Short Songs Album
“Laid Down Where The Train Should Be”
Arrivals & Departures Album
“Rescued By A Hand In The Ocean Now I'm Alive In The Wind's Reflection”
Referring To Rescue, Discovering The Waterfront’s Hand In The Water, I Am Alive In Everything I Touch, This Is How The Wind Shifts, And Dead Reflection
“The Broken Record's Still Spinning”
When Broken Is Easily Fixed Album
|:|:|: where are yøu :|:|:|
“I Had That Dream Again
It Scared Me Half To Death
I Guess I’m Not Over It
Feels Like A Heart Attack
Could This Breath Be My Last?
Is This How It Ends?
But If I Make My Head Stop Spinning Will My Heart Stop Too?
Lost Myself Tryna Hold On To You
(Where Are You Tonight?)
Where Are You Tonight?
I Can’t Get You Out Of My Mind
Where Are You Tonight?
’cause I Still Feel Like I Could Flatline
Where Are You Tonight?”
Oh god damn, why? silverstein do you get me with your lyrics so hard on this song. lets just say that 2020 has been the year for some crazy dreams, like deja vu dreams. that first verse was like whøa and then the chorus came in and just personally slayed me. lets just say i was “flat-lining” the whole song.
|:|:|: madness :|:|:|
“You, You, You Know
It’s Too Fast, Too Close
This Isn’t Love, This Is Madness
You, You, You Know
Too Far Gone, So It Goes
This Isn’t Love, This Is Madness
[Verse 3: Princess Nokia]
I Took My Heart Back, And No You Can’t Have It
This Isn’t Love, It’s Straight Out Of Madness
Doing Drugs, Our Love Was A Habit
Your Drug Is Good, But I Am An Addict
[Shane Todd:]
I Get It, I’m A Romantic Ambulance Chaser
Fuck Pen, Let’s Write In Eraser
And When It’s All Done I’ll Be Alright
I Thought “Last Time” Was The Last Time
[Princess Nokia:]
Enough Enough, It’s Time To Wreck Havoc
I’m Growing Cold, I’m Caught In Your Madness
Soon Enough, You’ll Only End Tragic
I Hear Your Voice, The Comfort In Sadness”
that beginning Bass Line gave me a 2000s feeling, and then the screaming comes in with amazing lyrics, I was pretty hooked once it got to the chorus
Then the rapping by princess nokia, and screaming breakdown made me eargasm for sure. “I’m A Romantic Ambulance Chaser … Oof … explains my love life to a ‘T’ ;)... then “i hear your voice, the comfort in sadness”, the fading voice coder is superb on “in-ear-monitor” headphones. this whole song is really underlying tons of effects its awesome. its probably why its my favorite song on the album.
|:|:|: infinite (feat. aaron gillespie) :|:|:|
“My Mind’s Running Away, A Mile A Minute, Can’t Shake It Off
Six Feet Down Buried In My Own Thoughts
How Can I Be An Optimist When All This Feels
Infinite?
When The Darkness Finds Me
All This Feels Infinite
And The Pain Is Blinding
All This Feels
Infinite, It’s Infinite
Infinite, It’s Infinite”
Little did silverstein know that these lyrics would be perfect for the massive lock-down that would happen globally. it feels like its infinite and it is most DEFINITELY hard to feel optimistic through all of this.
however, they got their shit together as a band, and did an awesome “quaranstein” web documentary & concert. i enjoyed it alot. there’s even a special vocal guest on it :)
100 Gecs:
1000 Gecs and the tree of clues
EXPERIMENTAL-HYPER POP / ELECTRONIC
Because of the collaborations of each song,
***ADD Blackbear Insta of it :)
i took some or all of the lyrics from each featuring artists.
|:|:|: Ringtone (Charli XCX, Rico Nasty,
Kero Kero Bonito) :|:|:|
“[Charli XCX]
My Boy’s Got His Own Ringtone
It’s The Only One I Know, It’s The Only One I Know
My Boy’s Got His Own Ringtone
It’s The Only One I Know, It’s The Only One I Answer
[Sarah Bonito]
KKB, AAC
Your Ringtone Could Be Anything
A Barking Dog, Revved Engine
Whatever Catches Your Attention
It’s Your Choice
Would You Like To Hear My Voice?
Or Is It Hard To Talk
When You’re Scared Of Where The Call Is Coming From?
[Rico Nasty]
I Think I Might Be Addicted To Your Kisses
Lovestruck, Baby, You’re The Piece I’m Missin’
I Know You’re What I’m Lookin’ For And I’m So Tired Of Wishin’
We Can Do It Now Or Later, It Don’t Make A Difference
He Sent Me A Text, Says “See You When You Get Here”
I Was Lonely Last Week, But I Won’t Be Next Year
Kiss Me On My Left Cheek, Love Me Like My Bestie”
i’m such a sucker for girl pop music. I think mainly because, i always have some type of hardcore version running through my head. every pop song, perfectly sets up the base for it. its mainly a mix to pop hardcore.
anyways, in typical charli xcx fashiøn her catchy voice elevates the song. this mix to me, is awesome because, it now introduced me to more girl pop, which i said i am a sucker for. this song will get stuck in your head “for days”!
|:|:|: Hand Crushed by a Mallet (Remix)
(Fall Out Boy, Craig Owens, Nicole Dollanganger) :|:|:|
“[Patrick Stump]
I Was Dying To Find A Way To Kill Time
I Didn’t Even Get To Tell You Goodbye
I Was Dying To Find A Way To Kill Time (A Way To Kill Time)
Now You’re Gone And I Can’t Ever Say Goodbye
[Nicole Dollanganger]
Oh My God, What The Fuck?
Take My Hand, Crush It Up
Spill The Blood On The Floor
I Ain’t Scared, Think There’s More
What The Fuck? Make It Stop
Took Too Long, Here Right Now
[Craig Owens]
I Hear You’re Lookin’ For A Way To Fight The Corpus Bride
She’s Workin’ In My Mind
And You’re Lookin’ For A Way To Crush
It’s Not Enough
You Fucked Up Your Last Try
We Were In The Studio, I Was Just Playin’
You Were All Work And I Was All Play And
You Were Talkin’ Business, Aiming With Your Weapon
I Was On Your Hit List, I Felt The Compression”
i don’t even know where to start with this song.
for real. besides the amazing blend of genres that imo made the list, and it rightfully should have.
i do admit i have a bias for patrick stump and craig owews, new to nicole dollanganger. i am going to check her out now though.
it was one of those things that you were like “what did my ears just hear? the dirtiest fucking breakdown, thats what”. @2:13- And really to the end of the song.
now everyone in the 2020 quarantine, hardcore scene. just fucking imagine. how insane that pit would be.
i would risked it for like 10 seconds, in, 10 out. then would slightly steer clear aka move at that insane robotic breakdown, then i’d jump back in screaming my little indian hardcore heart out. good god i loved it.
|:|:|: Stupid horse
(remix)(count baldor, gtfoty) :|:|:|
“So I Found A Fuckin’ Jockey And I Shagged Him (Pick It Up)
Pushed Him Down To The Ground And I Kissed Him In His Face (In His Face)
Yeah, I Stole His Phone, That Put Him In His Place (In His Place)
Me And The Boy, We Ran Out Of The Place (The Place)
Then I Took That Boy Back To My Place
Stupid Sheep, I Just Fell Out Of The Jeep
Stole The Money In Your Bank Account, Oh No
Stupid Goat, I Just Fell Out Of The Boat
Stole The Money In Your Bank Account, Oh No
Stupid Bird, I Just Fell Off Of The Bird
Stole The Money In Your Bank Account, Oh No
Stupid Dog, I Just Fell Off Of My Hog
Stole The Money In Your Bank Account”
this particular song reminds me of like a modern ‘barbie’ “aqua” song, and its catchy af.
the song is originally about capitalism and how it is affecting our human pysche.
alternately, its a song about running out of heroin and mugging your dealer to re-up from how strung out you are, then passing out in your car.
this particular remix changed some of the lyrics, to the intentionally bizarre lyrics that gtfoty delivers.
polaris :
the death of me
POST-HARDCORE / PROGRESSIVE-METAL
|:|:|: masøchist :|:|:|
“[Verse 1]
I thought I had this, I thought I had this all figured out
You’d think I’d learned from all the shit I fucking screamed about
When there was sun, I couldn’t see for the clouds
Still climbing the walls of this well just to dive back down
Until I reached my rock bottom
Down to the marrow, bringing up the bad blood I’d forgotten
Is it me that’s making me sick?
Been burning both ends of the wick
[Chorus]
Am I addicted to the misery? Is this how I’ll always be?
Grinding the salt into every wound
Am I in love with all my ailments, glutton for punishment?
You can’t trust me to be there for you
I’ve got this cold black silhouette hanging like a marionette
Casting a shadow, a shade over me
Just a sick, sad, sorry mess, living like a masochist
Your worst impressions were right about me
Your worst impressions were right about me
Your worst impressions were right
[Bridge]
I could ask you to stay if you’re feeling forgiving
I could live with the guilt if you call this living
I could try to memorise each grain of sand
As it slips through my fingers and falls from my hands
It took me longer than I’d care to admit
This life is only what I choose to make of it
And the only thing standing in between happiness and myself
Was this depression I held so close to my chest”
this song sorta has a special weird awesome place in my heart. so my homie andrew was in town for the holidays and his b-day. he works at 64 audio and anyone who is anyone has a pair of them. click on that link and be blown away, then save up and buy a fucking pair.
well i was lucky and blessed because he had his entire line of demos, and i got to hear a $12,000 piece of audio equipment, and he showed me this song. it changed my life. literally. not only because the song blow me away. it took me to a different world again. a familiar one with a sense of hardcore nostalgia. that opening guitar, with a serenading voice into that catchy af chorus, then you top that with phenomenal lyrics that slayed so hard . . .
because of those headphones blew my fucking audiophile’s ears off!!! that i almost cried. it was a super surreal experience and if you’re an “audi audi” you’d know, and i just made that up. its a person thats had an audi and also an audiophile.
if you were a singular “audi” you would have been more than blown away. its like when you upgrade your airpods to sony | bose | shure headphones and you think damn this is so good. nope, its not. audio technology is so fucking awesome. right now im sporting shure 215 white edition. i can’t put into words how beautiful it was to hear this song on such a life changing piece of audio equipment.
There’s a strong pop-punk influence to this song blended in with the metalcore and post-hardcore elements—something that’s been there a lot in the past but is a bit more obvious here. I wanted to try taking advantage of simplicity a little more [by] just letting the chords and the vocals and lyrics do the talking instead of overcomplicating things. Lyrically, this is probably one of the most upfront songs we’ve ever written. It’s a song about blaming yourself for your mental health, asking: “Am I responsible for my own miserable state of mind, my own depression? Why do I keep doing this to myself, ruminating over things that bring me down?” I have a bad habit of dwelling on negatives, running over them again and again and really punishing myself over my mistakes, and that can happen even when things are going really well in my life. I started to wonder if there’s a weird little masochistic part of me that feels more comfortable being unhappy, mistrusting happiness when it comes along and doubling down on negativity instead.This song is me looking in the mirror and begging myself to be honest and asking what the consequences of that would be if I keep going like this. When those lyrics started coming together, it was quite confronting for me to read back. I didn’t know at first if I was ready to put all of that out in the open in such a direct way, but I know I’m not the only person who has felt that way, so it seemed like something I had to keep writing about.
- drummer Daniel Furnari :::
::: via alternative presS
|:|:|: creatures of a habit :|:|:|
“[Pre-Chorus 1]
Crush My Spirit, Use Me For Parts
We Should Have Seen This Coming From The Start
[Chorus]
The Night Forgives And The Day Forgets
We Paint Ourselves In Our Past Regrets
[Verse 2]
So Why’s It All Come Down To Your Plan?
I Can’t Be Anything More Than I Am
I Can’t Be What You See In Your Head
Do You Know What You’ve Put Me Through?
So Come On And Break Me
Just To Make Me Feel Something
You Know I Know That You Hate Me
This Endless Eye For An Eye Will Only Send Us Blind
Has It Occurred To You That We’re Out Of Time?
[Pre-Chorus 2]
This House Is Hostile (This House Is Hostile)
There Are Ghosts Inside The Walls
At Night They Scratch At My Door
And Rattle The Chains That We Place On What We Can’t Control”
Already, i am addicted within the first 3 seconds. then, it hit the pre-chorus, it really hit all my nostalgia metalgasm NOTES.
I LOVE THE GUITAR THAT COMES IN THAT CHORUS, IT STEALS THE SHOWS AND TAKES YOU SOMEWHERE THAT I HAVEN’T BEEN TO FOR IN AWHILE.
ps- umm . . . these lyrics are phenomenal and i just wanna give the writers a hug. that 2nd pre=chorus was super deep, and hauntingly beautiful. it gave me the music dna goosebumps.
:::
personally, slayed me, because of my health history (30+ chemo treatments, 2 kidney transplant, 4 L-hip replacements for starters. i know none of this has to do with the song or what they were writing down, but thats the beauty of lyrics & phenomenal music.
[This was] the final song that we finished for the record and a very difficult one to wrangle, which led to the lyrics taking on a meta-meaning reflecting the strain that writing the record was putting on the band. We remained great friends through the whole thing, but there were times where the pressure we were putting on each other to step up and produce material, and our inability to see eye to eye on certain things, was driving a wedge between us. It was like we were always building each other up just to break each other down in hopes that the new version would be better. I was able to channel the frustration of that into this song, and there are a lot of points where I was writing from the perspective of the other guys in the band, trying to get inside their heads and imagining what they really wanted to say to me, or to each other, but were maybe too afraid to say. That was therapeutic and allowed me to self-examine my faults and my role in it.
- drummer Daniel Furnari :::
::: via alternative presS
|:|:|: the descent :|:|:|
“I Can’t Pretend I Haven’t Dreamt Of You
(The Shadow In)
The Shadow In The Cemetery
I Know The Grip, I Shook Your Hand, Too Young
To Ever Comprehend
To Leave This World With You, Familiar Friend
Would Be Such A Perfect End
[Pre-Chorus 2]
When Time Stands Still
And Your Hands Can’t Feel
When The Storm Won’t Pass
And You Taste Only Ash
When The Days Draw On
And The Nights Grow Long
Is It So Absurd To Ask?
[Chorus]
Malicious Master Of My Destiny
What Is It That You Want From Me?
What Is It That You Seek? (What Do You Seek?)
And While The Scavengers Surround
I Listen Closely For The Sound
That Echoes From The Deep
[Outro]
Slow Descent (Slow Descent)
No Light To Be Found (Be Found)
Sin Has Clothed Me In Its Shroud (In Its Shroud)
And In My Ears He Calls Me Down
End The Suffering, Lay Your Burden Down
Follow Me Down
There Are Answers Waiting For You Underground”
This ending track is probably one of the best ones I have heard in quite awhile within this particular blended scene of progressive metalcore.
the outro of this song, wow. just amazing, it gives me that REMINISCENT of feeling of underøath, and thats a beautiful thing.
I told all my hardcore friends, this was going to be album of the year. It’s the end of November, and stand by that statement. What a FUCKING Phenomenal album … jfc.
Much like “Pray For Rain,” “The Descent” takes the time to tell a more detailed story. In the same way that “Pray For Rain” felt like it was meant to be an album opener, this track naturally found its place at the end of the record, with Rick writing these really dark harmonic minor riffs. That place was cemented when he put together the ominous, heavily layered ending of the song, which sounded to the rest of us like some kind of rapture. In writing these lyrics, I ended up taking on a different voice to how I normally write. I was drawing from some conversations we’d shared within the band about real-life experiences that certain members had in their darkest moments. I extrapolated on the imagery and experiences we’d spoken about and ended up with this story told through the eyes of a fictional narrator who wakes up from an apocalyptic nightmare to find himself in a hospital in the aftermath of a traumatic event. As he struggles to come to terms with what brought him there, questioning his purpose and whether the universe ever really had a plan for him, the narrator fights for control over his own mind as he feels himself being pulled in different directions by forces of good and evil, life and death. This song doesn’t leave a lot of room for hope or silver linings. It’s a bleak place to leave the album, but it felt fitting musically and lyrically that this would be where the record leads to. We’d rather be left rattled by the end of a record than finish with a comfortable resolution that doesn’t feel justified.
- drummer Daniel Furnari :::
::: via alternative press
“[Chorus]
I’ve Been Up, I’ve Been Down Every Day
I’ve Been Thinking,
Am I Always Gonna Be This Way?
Tell Me, Am I A Man Or Machine?
A Slave To Substance
Or A Slave To Routine? Yeah
[Post-Chorus]
Save My Soul
Can’t Stop Me, Can’t Stop Me
Crawling Down This Rabbit Hole (Mercy)
Save My Soul
Oh, Can You Tell That
I Can’t Tell You Who I Am Anymore?
[Bridge]
Count Me In, Pull The Pin,
And I’m Ready To Go
(Do You Feel Like You’re Free
When You Lose Control?)
No Heaven Above Without A Hell Below
(What’s Your Worth On The Earth
If You Sell Your Soul?)
I’m Only Here Because
It’s Harder To Feel Than To Numb What Is Real
But I Know By Now That
This State Of Mind Is Just A Waste Of Time
And It’s Turning Me Inside-out”
|:|:|: hypermaniA :|:|:|
this søng is a beautiful chaotic disaster. you can really feel the hypermania. i love it.
“Hypermania” is a song about the fear of losing your mind—a paranoia about being paranoid, so to speak. There have been a lot of times in the last couple of years where some of us have felt like we were honestly on the verge of mental collapse. Instrumentally, this track is very much a Rick [Schneider, guitarist] creation. It was the first thing he had dived into since we put out The Mortal Coil, so it served as a bit of a palate cleanser, as it stood quite far apart from that record. I think for him, the dissonant, chaotic riffing was influenced by bands such as Stray From The Path and END, but when I came into the song, I was getting a really big Southern-hardcore vibe, which played heavily into the way we approached writing vocals. We had a lot of fun exploring and bringing out new characteristics in Jamie’s [Hails, vocalist] voice, channeling some vibes from Maylene & The Sons of Disaster, Every Time I Die and Underoath. It seemed natural to us for this song to have only screamed vocals, but I feel that the almost sing-songy style of the chorus hook is what allowed us to keep it catchy. Jake [Steinhauser, bassist/vocalist has always been able to scream as well as sing, but this was our first time working that into a recorded track, and we then started incorporated his screams into some other songs.
- drummer Daniel Furnari :::
::: via alternative press
Fit For A King:
The Path
METALLIC-PUNK HARDCORE
|:|:|: Locked In My Head :|:|:|
“The Writing’s On The Wall, Replaying Every Story
Reality Got Lost In The Fear Waiting For Me
[Pre-chorus]
If All I Know Is The Worst In Me
If I Close My Eyes, Will It Set Me Free?
Set Me Free!
[Chorus]
Locked In My Head Again
Locked In My Head Again
A War Against Myself
It’s Me And No One Else
Nobody Understands
I’m Locked In My Head Again
[Verse 2]
Another Night, Another Breath, Hopeless Prayers
Pulling In, Dwelling In, All My Fears”
my friend tim wright from high school showed me this song, well the music video blew me the fuck away
it really pulled me in with the pre-chorus/chorus. it was a beautiful combination of lyrics and instruments. then that double bass comes in, and you are like . . . umm gtfo of here!
the music video was beautifully shot. being in a glass box, being shot with a blend of mortar shells, and roman candles was the genius of the whole production team. that above shot coming in from each edge of the box was whoooooo! fucking awesome.
|:|:|: Prophet :|:|:|
“[Chorus]
Prophet, What Are Your Words For Me?
Savior, Am I Too Blind To See?
If You Can Create All Of The Stars
Then Why Can’t You Mend A Broken Heart?
[Chorus Alt.]
Prophet, I’m Trying To Believe
Savior, Why Aren’t You Saving Me?
If You Can Create All Of The Stars
Then Come Down And Show Me Who You Are”
when i first heard this song, i was very intrigued. one because, outside of mormon religion, not many people refer to “prophets”, and boy was i in for a wild ride.
the way they accentuated the word “prophet & savior” was in a way semi comforting. you can feel the pain and the questions and answers they were searching for, but their “god” or “higher power” let them down.
the chorus/alt lyrics really make you think, if you are so powerful and can create the cosmo’s why the fuck can’t you come down and show yourself and fix our EXISTENCE? very powerful.
|:|:|: the face of hate :|:|:|
“[Chorus]
A Movement, Connected
Our Voices Rise Above The Flames
Redeemed In The Ashes
We’re Staring Down The Face Of Hate
[Verse 2]
An Evil That Only Knows Pain
They’re Broken And Leading The Way
Heretics With An Axe To Clutch
Crush The Truth
Turn It To Dust”
This song just grabs you at the beginning, with the screaming and then the awesome riff. then they come in with a dual guitar and that tone makes you feel all warm and fuzzy inside. however, this song is explained below by . . .
Ryan Kirby (lead vocals) said this song is about the current state of the world. There have always been disagreements, but nowadays, there is genuine hatred towards each other; towards those with differing opinions. It’s not a healthy place to be, and this song is a call to end this hatred. Rise above the flames.
Deftones: ohms
NU-METAL / ALTERNATIVE
|:|:|: ohms :|:|:|
The song that brought them back into my 9th grade nu-metal heart. i must have listened to this song on repeat ten times. its always so interesting when a band can take you back to memories that you may have forgot. thats pretty much what this song did for me. around the fur was my first burned cd. it took 28 mins to do, then when i got enough money i went out and bought it.
“[Verse 1]
We’re Surrounded By Debris Of The Past
And It’s Too Late To Cause A Change In The Tides
So We Slip Into Our Hopeless Sea Of Regret As I Stare
[pre-chorus]
Through The Haunted Maze In Your Eyes
Right Through Where I’ll Remain For All Time
[Chorus 1]
And Time Won’t Change This
This Promise We Made
Yeah, The Time Won’t Change This
It’s How It’ll Stay
[Verse 2]
This Is Our Time, We Devour The Days Ahead
We’ve Been Possessed By These Changing Times
As We Slip On Through, We Promised To Meet Again Somewhere”
“Some songs are demoed. For instance, ‘Ohms‘. Stephen sent me that demo three years ago. I love when I open up my email and he’s sending me something, that to me is one of the biggest highs that I can ever get. He doesn’t do it often, so it means that he’s hyped about it, it’s something he wants me to hear. It must be special.
The tempo that is on the record, it’s WAY sped up from when he sent it to me. It was like this really kind of stonery, sludgy kind of thing. But the riffs were there. The ideas were there. But a lot of the stuff kind of comes from jamming.
Maybe a third of the stuff will come from just us being in the room and jamming. Those are probably the most Deftones tunes I think because obviously its everybody just sort of reacting to each other.”
- lead vocalists ::: chino moreno
via ::: the prp
|:|:|: error :|:|:|
the beginning of this song game me all the feelz. the interesting lyrics about “floating, and gliding, above the grid, while we all chase honey. were just outstanding lyrics. are there errors now that we have all been in this grid for entirely too long? very possible.
“[Verse 1]
Tell Me Something
Have We Escaped?
Are We Just Lost?
The Mirrors Taunting Us Against The Walls
[Pre-Chorus]
We Are Running Across The Grid
Chasing Honey And Closing In
[Verse 2]
We’re Bound Together
In Neon Tape
I Taste In Your Mouth
We Hang Upside Down
[Pre-Chorus Alt]
We Are Gliding Above The Planes
Dripping Honey That Prances Through Our Veins”
…I’m able to approach [the songwriting] right at the beginning, so where I can initially spark an idea, or I can come at the end when Chino’s just finished lyrics, which is usually the last and then I’m able to enhance that with the lyrics… And sometimes it takes towards the end for me to find something that works or what he’s talking about or it eventually makes itself known. But for me it’s really cool because I’m able to attack it in different ways.
- turntable | keyboards ::: frank delgado
via ::: the prp
|:|:|: urantia :|:|:|
this song was an awesome feeling of when deftones were a more nu-metal genre. i love the signature sound this track has, and it does feel very trippy and a familiar feeling of the deftones i grew up on. i can see myself just chillin’, vibing, and smoking a nice fat topedo joint at a concert.
“[Verse 1]
I Slipped Into The Cloak You Left
I Fiddle Around In The Ashtray
To Find Your Cigarette Pinkish Red
I Light It And Take A Drag
[Pre-Chorus 1]
I Swear I’m Losing It
With All These Erased Recordings, I’m Rearranging Parts
You Should Accept
We’ll Probably Remain This Way To The End, In Steps”
“The song itself was a trip, because it’s probably one of the most—especially the way it starts out—I mean musically it’s like reminiscent of thrash metal. [Imitates opening riff] that reminds me of Death Angel or straight up Bay Area thrash from when we were growing up.
When Stephen [Carpenter, guitars] was playing that, when he came up with that, right away I was just like ‘Yes!’ this is so like something that we all love but we’ve never really done.
And then the song kind of drops into this swoony kind of verses, whatever. But the lyrics are pretty interesting because I’m really, really kind of painting a picture of a scenario. I live on a lake, or right by this big lake. I ride my bike around it a couple times a week [or] walk around it. It’s like a seven mile kind of loop.
But I talk about circling around the lake, this is all like literal things that I was seeing from like digging into the ashtray and pulling out someone’s cigarette and lighting it and taking a drag—very descriptive kind of things.
Although it’s all made up, it’s kind of fun sometimes when you can do that as far as be very, very descriptive. I don’t do that all the time. That’s kind of something that I really don’t do that much. Sometimes my lyrics all look too camouflaged. So sometimes to be very descriptive is kind of outside of my comfort zone in a way.”
- lead vocalists ::: chino moreno
via ::: the prp
|:|:|: this link is dead :|:|:|
“Look Deep Inside
You Might See I’m Just Fine
Look Close, Close Inside
Don’t Miss This Moment,
You May Never Get Back
I’ll Show You Something,
Something Prized
Well, You Were There,
You Think You Know What It’s Like?
I Have No Patience Now For Expectation, Wow
Fuck This Shit, Leave Me Alone”
Phew . . . I don’t even know where to start with this song except … at the start. they say a really great song pulls you within seconds if not by thirty seconds, it also typically starts within the frame of tracks five to seven.
so it leaked. i went right to seven, it sorta fucked me, like the hot ass girl you’re chasing. i auditory climaxed too early.
at second one, i was speaking to myself, like okay . . . where are we going with this, by second 20 i was all in. then that beautifully crafted, signature deftones flow went into effect, with chino’s lil’ screams & voice after all these years, it was deadly.